Pretty sure that I had a visit from an angel while I was working because the whole encounter was just too perfect and right on time.
I woke up that morning feeling quite defeated. Knowing after several days of good things happening that it wouldn't last forever, I should have been prepared. I should have been ready for a down day. I've learned that the enemy always attacks when I'm feeling closest to God. That should have served as my red flag. I should have been on guard and ready for this attack but sadly it took me by surprise. I've been walking so confident and secure in His plan and His love lately but woke up allowing the whispers of an enemy so vile to enter my head and fill my heart. I just couldn't stand up against the attack.
It is unusual for me to been seen without a smile on my face or happy for that matter. This is how I arrived at work on this day. Unhappy to be there. Sadness in my eyes and defeat in my heart. I was unprepared. I had neglected having my daily conversation with God that morning leaving me open for more attacks. Honestly, I just didn't care. I felt justified in allowing the enemy to get the best of me. Come on, I deserve it every once in awhile after all I've been through. Right? You know what? It was okay. God knew I would have my down day and He had everything in place.
I'm learning that I do not have to be strong all the time. I'm learning that everyone has weak moments. God knows my heart, He knows where I stand with Him, which means that even in those dark moments, when I'm not feeling it He knows I trust Him. He was prepared for me.
Work that morning was incredibly slow. The store was hauntingly quiet which meant I was alone in my thoughts. For me, when I'm down, being alone with my thoughts is horrible place to find myself. I end up having conversations in my head with those that I would more than enjoy having a face-to-face confrontation with at some point in time. However, these conversations are never good and I can be completely honest and say not Christ like either. These particular conversations only bring me down even more and draw me further from Truth. This is when I could feel the Holy Spirit tugging at my heart reminding me to take my thoughts captive. This morning that was easier said than done.
As I was wrestling with the Holy Spirit, I happened to look up and see an elderly woman standing at the counter. She appeared to be the age of my grandmother. I took a breath and walked over. I just did not feel like talking. As I approached her, it was as if she could read my mind. She looked at me and said, "This store is so quiet. Almost too quiet. Leaves too much time to think." I'm sure my jaw dropped. I was not sure what to say but simply answered with a quiet yes. From there a conversation developed that continued for an hour. I did not say much but instead just listened. From what few details I divulged of my own life, it was as if she knew the rest of my story by what she shared.
I have experienced those types of situations so many times throughout the past couple of years. Those moments when I'm feeling the most defeated, God sends a divine appointment. After this encounter, I am even more certain that angels have entertained me on more than one occasion. God's providential planning is awe-inspiring. That morning, He took my emotionally drained heart and rejuvenated it through a conversion that was clearly divine. He is always on time, every time.
After she left, I began sharing with a new coworker of what had just happened. He too is a Christian and for the next thirty minutes, we talked about Joseph, Esther and Job. He pointed out pieces of my life that were clearly moments of God working to grow my faith. It was a remarkable couple of hours at work.
Several months ago when I was hired at this store, I walked out rejoicing because after fourteen years of being a stay at home mom, I was hired on the spot. With the economy so bad and so many without work, I was given the first job I applied for right on the spot and I whole heartedly believed that God had given me that job as a way to provide for me financially. Boy, I have quickly changed my mind. I no longer feel that this job has anything to do with money. After several longs years of being abandoned by friends, family and a church I trusted, people who had been in my life for years, God has placed me in a position where complete and utter strangers are speaking His truth to me. I have learned to recognize His voice in the most random circumstances and the most unusual people.
God knows what we need. He knows when we need it. I've stopped worrying about my circumstances because I learned some time ago that He has a plan much greater than anything I can see. Now I'm learning how to recognize His hand in every situation. He shows His constant confirmation of His presence in my life almost daily now by those who are willing to be obedient to His voice and speak truth into my life.
Here's praying that now I will be that obedient one and be available to those around me when they need to hear truth. May my heart be ready and open to hear His call when He asks me to speak in bold obedience to another who needs to hear truth and find hope.
GOD IS GOOD!